I'm Sorry

I've been a bad blogger : (

The good news is that I'm hoping to soon have a lot more to talk about. In the meantime I'm leaving you with this teaser post.

Next update: Thursday, July 16th.

Not Too Bad

I thought that I would have gained while on vacation because we didn't eat great and we didn't workout at all. I actually lost several pounds. I weighed in this week and I'm down to 204. So far I have lost 11 pounds in 14 weeks on the 20/20 challenge. I'm behind and I'm okay with that for now. I figure I have about two weeks to keep working hard and in all honesty I'd be happy with any losses at this point.

I've slacked off on going to the gym this last week. From now until July 11th we are free of baseball so my plan is to go to the gym at least 5 days a week. If I go every Saturday and Sunday I will only have to go 3 times during the week.

I'm starting to get excited that if all goes well I should be starting a new cycle in 5-7 days. I'm really hoping to start now! Its not too often that you hear a girl begging for AF to visit : )

I'm Back and I Have a Story

Jason and just returned from Denver on Sunday. We went out to visit his family and see the Rays play the Rockies. It was our first time taking a "road trip" to see our home team play on the road. What a blast! We arrived early to the field each day so that we could watch batting practice. While in Denver we toured the Hammond's Candies factory and the Unsinkable Molly Brown house. Both were very interesting. We spent wayyyyy too much money on candy but we mostly bought gifts. The family stuff was pretty good. His mom and step dad have adopted two girls from China over the last few years so it was nice to spend time with them since we haven't seen them since last summer.

The story: Jason's parents insist that we go to church with them when we visit. Its not that I don't believe in God its just that I don't think that I need to go to church to be a religious and/or responsible person. I'm also not a big fan of their style of church. Anyway...this place is huge and actually transmits its service to and from three locations in Colorado Springs. We arrive and sit with their friends and we are introduced to the same people we have met on three previous trips. Then the service begins and it started with a song and video for Father's Day. I was totally caught off guard and completely lost it. I'm talking tears flowing so much that I thought I would have to leave. Of coarse I have no purse and no tissues. Then after the song and video is over he asks everyone to rise and wish all the fathers around them a Happy Father's Day. This meant that I had to turn to his step dad and the others behind us with tears and snot all over my face. I managed to ask the lady in front of me to pass the box of tissues that was sitting in her pew. I'm very thankful that my husband simply held my hand for the rest of the service. I think anything more than that and I would have been whaling like a little baby. I didn't help that the due date for our second baby, a girl, was the day prior.

There's more: Upon arriving home on Sunday I check Facebook to see that a long time friend of the family has announced her 9 wk pregnancy. They are in their very early 20's and just celebrated the 1 yr birthday of their son in May. They have no money. Its especially hard because we see them almost weekly for dinner so I will get to see her grow, slowly. Its going to be a long 9 months.

Not a Good Week

I gained 3 lbs this week. I'm not shocked but I'm very upset about it. There goes making it below 200 by July 1st. We are leaving for Denver on Tuesday and will be gone a week so I'm pretty sure that diet will be next to impossible to maintain with all the activities and dinners that are planned. The only thing I can count on is that we will be doing a lot of walking.



I really thought that I would be super motivated this week. I also thought that I would get to the gym 6 times and eat better. None of which actually happened. I knew this the entire week. Its not like I can't control what I eat - I just didn't do it. The gym problems were just me not planning my week better. Had I remembered that we had plans on Thursday night I would never have skipped the gym on Monday. Had I remembered that I had to take the dog to the vet on Thursday morning I would have worked out on Wednesday morning. I'm not even motivated to go tonight.



I'm really at a loss. I can't get the support from my husband and I apparently don't have the self motivation to say no and do what I know I need to do. I want to be healthy so that I can have a healthy pregnancy. I'm now 4 lbs behind in the 20/20 challenge.



No news on the big blood draw results.

Not Much

I have missed this week's goal of counting calories everyday and going to the gym 6x. I had to take Monday off because my ankle was really hurting. We had a Rays game tonight and tomorrow we are going to see a Glenn Beck thing. I haven't counted calories - I've been lazy. I was eating okay until today but had a mini meltdown. I'll get to the reason for the meltdown in a bit. I have not eaten the lunch that I took to work on Monday. In fact I didn't even eat lunch on Tuesday and today. I have been drinking a little more water and I haven't gotten on the scale.

The meltdown...Last week when I had the big blood draw I was told that no news is good news but if we need you we wouldn't call until the end of next week when the blood work comes back. After 5pm yesterday I realized that I missed a call from Dr M's office. So I was crazy worried last night. I just knew that they were calling to tell me that I can't get pregnant because my body will reject the baby. So I didn't sleep well and I just didn't care what I ate this morning - Cuban Toast and Cafe con Leche. The nurse called me back to tell me that some blood work came back and Dr M wants to change my prenatal so that my body will absorb more folic acid. Other than that no other news because they don't have all the results yet. I guess there was no reason to worry but I just couldn't help it. I was so hungry that when Jason said he wanted McDonald's instead of the Subway we had planned I caved and had two hamburgers and shared some fries and coke. Then after the game we were still hungry so we stopped for Taco Bell. Tomorrow isn't looking much better since we will not be eating at home and won't have a lot of time before the movie. Since I haven't stepped on the scale I have no idea what to expect come Friday morning. I'm even more aware of my fear of bad news from Dr M so I hope I can hold it together and not ruin what/any progress that I may have made earlier this week.

Stupid Scale

Its Friday and that means that I had an official 20/20 weigh in this morning. In a one hour period I stepped on the scale twice - the only difference being wet hair and then dry hair. 1st time I was down .5 lb from last week. 2nd time I was up .5 lb from last week. I know it sounds stupid to be upset over .5 lbs but its really 1 whole pound if you look at the total difference the scale was giving me. I had really been hoping that June would see big successes on the scale. I'm not seeing the changes I had expected but I only have myself to blame.

I have been working out hard and made it to the gym 5x over the last week. My goal this coming week is to go 6x and start back to the 5k training. (I hope that I won't have one to run because I hope to be pregnant but at least I can use that to help kick my butt into shape.)

I have been watching what I eat but not being overly obsessive. I've stayed away from regular soda and only had a few diet drinks. For the most part I have limited carbs and sugar but I haven't counted calories each and every day. I've also been drinking more water.

Next week's plan: 1) Work out 6 days - 2 days of weight training with cardio - 4 days full cardio. 2) Count calories every day. 3) Take lunch to work every day. 4) Only get on the scale one time - Friday morning. 5) Drink more water & keep track of how much I'm drinking.